Endsworld: Symphony Of The Void

Trying out posting to my journal from my iPhone :)

its been nearly 2 years to the day since i last posted on here :-o

Found a message in the sand
It read just do the best you can
This worlds not how I planned
Youre on your own

No one can hear you
Theyre just talking all the time
Theres the world and youre outside
Your homes hard to find
Your homes hard to find

Worn down by strangers
All you needs a friend
Youve been worn down by strangers
This is not the end

Guess its hard to settle down
When loves been spread all around the town
Im no stranger to this room
My highs just serve to bring me down
I hope to change now
From a sorry state of mind.
I had hoped for heart to heart
My hearts hard to find
My hearts hard to find

Worn down by strangers
All you needs a friend
Youve been worn down by strangers
This is not the end
(this is not the end)

Worn down by strangers
All you needs a friend
Youve been worn down by strangers
All you needs a friend
By strangers
By strangers
By strangers

(this is not the end)
(this is not the end)
This is the end

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You [x4]

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

Okay here again after another terrible week of work, not much done and been sick for most of it (and sick of it).

I'm off to Dublin again tomorrow, hopefully it'll be a little bit better than last weekend with the riots. As soon as i got off the bus it was time to go home again, Henry Street was just trashed (with me stuck in the middle of it). HELP!!!

After saving up for so long, okay i won't have the net at home for a few more weeks, i decided to go on a mini spending spree. I got myself a new 60 gig Black iPod (over half full already) and a couple of games for my PSP (Tales of Eternia and Lemmings) and a few DVDs that i wanted. Off to Dublin on monday to get a new pair of New Rock Boots and a new jacket, hopefully some new clothes too. I know I need a new DVD writer for my Laptop, and a new mouse and keyboard for the Mac Mini. But i guess at the minute clothes are more important, don't want to go around naked or looking like a tramp anymore :-P

I was suppose to have a day for myself and try and write, but i just ended up watching The Corpse Bride again. Then i realised I had Library books that were over due, not that even opened them, i really wanted to start on the Neil Gaiman book "Anansi's Boys" too.

I'm slowly getting back into my writing, my mind seems a little bit on the clearer side. So i've been thinking about my novella "The Year Of Dust", and a little bit about Endsworld. With a little bit of help from Maggie that is.

Didn't do much last night, went to Kilkenny, then came back and cooked Prawn Stirfry with noodles and had a huge big plate to myself :-P Tho i still didn't crawl into my bed until the small hours of this morning.

Work still getting me down, and i know that the only way i'm gonna solve that is to find something new. I did help out at the netcafe in Kilkenny on Friday, and they're looking for someone new, but i don't think that i want to stay in Kilkenny anymore.


I wish people would stop reminding me that its Valentines Day on Tuesday, I have no plans and i don't plan on making any or spending it with anyone. I'd rather just forget the day existed right now. Not that i'm bitter or anything i just feel that if you love someone you should tell them as often as you can (without overload that is) and spend a special day that is just yours together. Not have some corporation throw it down your throat that you have to do it this way and do it their way with their products. Makes me sick, every holiday we're suppose to celebrate have been taken away money grabbing idiots. Nobody remembers or cares why or how these days were created in the first place.

Am i the only person on here having trouble accessing journals, i can get to the front end but after that i'm a bit of a lame duck :-(

Well I'm kind of back in a way, I have semi regular internet access until I get broadband at The Islands or move to somewhere a little bit out of the way.

I can't say that i've been up to much lately, a few sporadic burst of writing but not much to speak of really. I've been trying to get my mind into better shape but it just seems to wander away from me at times.

The only thing of significance that I did lately was buy a new laptop, i was hoping to use it for work and writing, but i just seem to get lost in playing games. Mainly The Sims 2 and Rollercoaster Tycoon 2, tho they are fun they don't really lift my spirits that much.

Changing this journal to my normal personal one, seeing as i deleted my old one a long time ago. Don't expect much to happen here for a while tho.